It’s amazing to realize just how dynamic life really is.
Sure, on a day to day basis I feel may stuck and bored and bogged down with work, but when looking back on the past eight months, I’ve experienced more change than I can even comprehend.
Life’s a fucking whirlwind right now. In the past eight months I’ve reconnected with climbing, decided to graduate a full year early, declared my major, traveled thousands of miles, revived old friendships while losing relatively new ones, experienced more academic stress than ever before, experienced more happiness than ever before, kicked and screamed and cried, laughed and smiled and finally understood what it meant to truly be passionate about something.
Life is forever moving and changing, never taking a moment to stop and see if I’m still with it. I’m going to graduate, make new friendships and lose some old ones, experience stress over and over again, but also experience happiness over and over again. I’m going to scream and cry and laugh and smile and then scream and cry and laugh and smile some more.
I can’t predict what the future holds and I’m scared. Truly, entirely, to the core terrified. But I’m also excited. For who I’m going to be in the future and for how much more I’m going to understand about myself. For the experiences I’m going to learn from.
And I guess all of these emotions combine into what I’m feeling at this very moment: confused and without a clue of what the fuck is going on.. but in a way, I think I’m okay with that.