Change

It’s amazing to realize just how dynamic life really is.

Sure, on a day to day basis I feel may stuck and bored and bogged down with work, but when looking back on the past eight months, I’ve experienced more change than I can even comprehend.

Life’s a fucking whirlwind right now.  In the past eight months I’ve reconnected with climbing, decided to graduate a full year early, declared my major, traveled thousands of miles, revived old friendships while losing relatively new ones, experienced more academic stress than ever before, experienced more happiness than ever before, kicked and screamed and cried, laughed and smiled and finally understood what it meant to truly be passionate about something.

Life is forever moving and changing, never taking a moment to stop and see if I’m still with it.  I’m going to graduate, make new friendships and lose some old ones, experience stress over and over again, but also experience happiness over and over again.  I’m going to scream and cry and laugh and smile and then scream and cry and laugh and smile some more.

I can’t predict what the future holds and I’m scared.  Truly, entirely, to the core terrified.  But I’m also excited.  For who I’m going to be in the future and for how much more I’m going to understand about myself.  For the experiences I’m going to learn from.

And I guess all of these emotions combine into what I’m feeling at this very moment: confused and without a clue of what the fuck is going on.. but in a way, I think I’m okay with that.

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Mina Leslie-Wujastyk in the South East

http://tv.thebmc.co.uk/video/mina-leslie-wujastyk-in-the-south-east?current-channel=all-channels&order-by=recent

Came across this video this morning, and I love it. It’s awesome to see some footage of a girl crushing in the boulder fields I’m psyched on. She and David Mason were in LRC one of the same days as us and their group came to do The Pinch while I was working on Cleopatra. I wish I had seen her climb this stuff in person!

Weekend in Chatt

After 7 hours, 472 miles, and 64 ounces of Mountain Dew, I have returned to Charlottesville from a weekend in Chattanooga.

I learned two important things on this trip: what I can do, and what I can’t do.

I can do…

a lot more than I thought I could.  On Saturday, I went back to The Vagina at Rocktown for my third session on it.  I was sloppy through the beginning and kept falling on the crux: a powerful move from one crimp to another.  I could do the move easily in isolation that day, but couldn’t seem to link it to the beginning sequence.  After hitting, but not sticking the crux two or three times, my friend Kyle and I went to check out a nearby boulder while I rested.

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Cruxin’

I didn’t think I could do the climb.  In fact, I was sure I couldn’t do it.  I felt like I was wasting time trying and I wanted to leave it behind.  So I asked Kyle, “Do you think I can do the boulder?”, expecting a hesitant “maybe” in reply so I could suggest moving on.  But instead he answered, “Yes, you’ve hit the move three times now… you can definitely do it.”

I didn’t say anything back.  Just stared at the boulder we had ventured to, and told myself to get psyched.  Then I ran back up, got my shoes on… and fell on the crux.  But I felt different on that attempt.  Closer.  Stronger.  My mindset had changed.  For the first time since I first touched the boulder, I felt like I could do it… no, I knew I could do it. I was psyched and I was confident.  A feeling I don’t seem to have very often.  After a couple more attempts, I sent the climb.

I can do more than I think I can.  I need to realize what my body is capable of and have confidence when I climb at my limit.  I certainly wasn’t any physically stronger than I was a week prior (when I had my second session on it).  I just needed to make the mental jump from “I can’t” to “I can”. Such a simple switch, but it was incredibly important for me to make.

I can’t do…

climbs that I can’t do.  Some boulders are too hard right now and that’s just a fact.  But getting on climbs that I couldn’t do was just as important as sending the climbs that I could.  I was able to understand what the next level felt like and what I’m working towards.  It got me excited for the future and motivated to train hard.

I learned what I can do and what I can’t do, how to differentiate between the two, and how to use them to push me forward.  I came away this weekend with much more than a send, reminding me just why I love climbing so much.

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Gorgeous Rocktown sunset

How to get psyched to fingerboard

  1. Have a planned work out (mine: http://www.moonclimbing.com/blog/school/fingerboard-training-plan/)
  2. Listen to 80’s music and pretend you are in a montage
  3. Play videos of people sending your projects in the background
  4. Post a collage of strong climbers’ hands (but only their hands) on the wall you are facing (ex: Ashima, Sasha, Chris Sharma)
  5. Growl at yourself in the mirror on occasion and continuously tell yourself that you ARE a champ

Yup, I think I got this psych thing down.